Psalm 62:5
Let all that I am wait quietly before God, for my hope is in him.
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Amethyst Astilbe
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Something drew me to the green plant sprouting in
a flower bed where I work. The hosta leaves spread and the azaleas had finished
blooming. Yet this bushy little plant tucked into the corner of the bed, caught
my attention. It was as if it called me to look at it every day. Morning after
morning, I'd walk by and check out the greenery. One day I noticed tiny blooms
shooting out of stems. They shot up like sparklers on the fourth, but brown,
like they'd already bloomed and dried up. I knew they hadn't. So like Alice in
Wonderland, I got "Curiouser and curiouser!" I looked forward to
seeing whether the brown stayed that way or would they transform into something
more colorful. Then one day on my walk in to work, there they were. Lovely,
feathery, pink (my favorite color) blooms. Like a whisper, they called me to
them and said see this is what you've been waiting for.
Isn't that just how I am with God? I
seek the beautiful, the colorful joy, the "happy." But when I spy a
brown flower, or a bad day, a sad news story or a horrific one, I forget about
the hope. My anger bubbles at the people who judge parents who are hurting instead of
comforting them and at the people who kill innocent people. Instead of being curiouser
and curiouser and clinging to the hope I know is God, I become discouraged.
Yet I know if I sit at God's feet and seek his
wisdom, he provides hope. God is bigger than all that I face here. He's the
creator of all things, yet he listens to me and whispers in my ear. He tells me
he loves me and loves you. No matter what, God is the one I can count on. He
doesn't change. While all the world is falling apart, Jesus is holding me up.
He's sitting beside me and sharing his love. I usually end with a praise, today
let's end with a prayer.
"Lord, I need to sit quietly at your feet and
hear your voice. I lift up the people who are hurting this week. There's so
much sadness. Please help me not to judge, but instead to love. I can't begin
to thank you enough for the hope I find in you. Thank you so much for your son,
Jesus. In his name I pray. Amen"